Offenses: Rectifying offenses

                                                                  If one commits offenses against devotees, and also has a strong false ego problem, then how to purify it and rectify the offenses? How to convert false ego?

                                                                  The way to overcome false ego is to cultivate real ego. Our real identity, constitutionally, is that we are eternal servants of Krishna and servants of His servants. By diligently cultivating a spiritual vision, by seeing ourselves as humble servants of the devotees and being in the attitude of serving them beneficially, replaces offensive and false egoistic mentality.

                                                                  Q. What is an offence towards others? And how I can recognize that I'm committing offences? What are the symptoms through which I can observe and verify that I'm committing offences?

                                                                  An offence literally means a transgression of law, or an act that causes insult, pain or displeasure to another. The determining character of an offence is something that causes displeasure to Krishna.

                                                                  Offence can be of different kinds – it could be direct offence to Krishna or His Deity, as when one derides the form or the potency of Krishna, like the Mayavadis and atheists do.

                                                                  Q. 1. I am new and I started chanting 1 or 2 rounds every day. I thought I am fortunate to know Krishna Consciousness but now I feel I am committing so many offenses. I feel that those who do not know Krishna Consciousness, who may not be worshiping Lord Krishna but at least they are not committing such mistakes, may be better than me. I try to think of God always wherever I am, but I am getting bad thoughts or negative thoughts about God. I fear bad things happening to me or to my family members if I do not think of God before starting any work, or before going anywhere, or if I see a picture or Deity anywhere but fail to pray. I am more worried about not getting bad thoughts while chanting or worshipping, rather than feelings of Bhakti.

                                                                  Q. In one of your instructions posted under obstacles (choosing Krishna), you have very rightly warned as to how vigilant we must be in executing our devotional service. That which may look innocent at the beginning could soon turn into an attachment and a problem very difficult to manage later. But what does one do to rectify this if the situation has indeed gone out of hand? One might feel extremely repentant of the choice he made but now that choice has become an attachment. Will Krishna still accept and forgive and give him a chance to choose Him again?

                                                                  Your question was in two parts. I will address them one by one.

                                                                  Q. Because of pride somebody assumed himself as great devotee. He regarded himself as an advanced devotee and cultivated enviousness. He couldn't recognize his deviations in consciousness. Because of restlessness in mind later he offended an associate, a friend. Earlier he had a taste for hearing and chanting because of his genuine humility and sincerity.
                                                                  Now he lost the taste; instead he became like a hard-hearted and uncontrollable animal. He asked forgiveness from his friend.

                                                                  In any life will he receive love of Godhead?
                                                                   

                                                                  Q: What will happen to the offenses committed after initiation? Will the Lord punish us for the offenses after the end of the life and do we have to suffer the offenses and take birth? Also, because of this will a devotee loses the opportunity to go back home back to Godhead?
                                                                  Are there any prayers I can pray daily to overcome the offenses and please the Lord apart from chanting 16 rounds? Please clarify.